I will never build a house.
I will never homeschool.
I will never have an animal when my kids are young.
I will never write.
I will never have a fourth kid. (said after we had our 3rd)
I will never adopt.
These are some of my “nevers” that I have told God. I am a pretty stubborn person, and when I get something in my head I have a hard time changing my mind. My husband has learned over the years to just nod his head and let me talk. Then secretly I think he laughs, knowing that someday I will change my mind and see more clearly what God has in store for us. He is smart enough to know that for now it is not worth arguing over.
For example: I have adamantly said from the very beginning that we will not homeschool our kids. I’ve said that they will either go to private or public school, but I will not homeschool them. I did have some logic behind this never, or so I thought. My husband and I are firm believers in getting a solid education and going on to get a college degree, and growing up I knew of a few families that homeschooled and the product of that homeschool was not to be desired. I didn’t know that you could actually provide a good education through homeschooling until I was married and starting to go to our current church. We have several families in our church who homeschool for part or all of their children’s education and much to my amazement you can do it and do it well! Then I softened a little and said, homeschool is for “some” families but not for ours.
But then I started having kids, and they started getting preschool and school aged, and I began to put together curriculums! And buying desks! And organizing outings! We put together a Bible curriculum and an outing curriculum to teach our kids about the Bible and about the world around us. We love to explore and see God’s beautiful creation. We love to take Bible stories to the next level so that we can learn from the mistakes of some and strive to have the same character qualities of others. As I dive deeper into the training of our children I am understanding the benefit of teaching and training your children through homeschooling. Before I even realized it, God had taken my ‘Never’ and turned it into a ‘Maybe Someday…’
Right now our daughters attend our church’s school – Hannah in 2nd and Rebekah in Kindergarten, and we love it. So currently, we are not homeschooling our children, but I am loving the impact I can have on their understanding of God. We are really enjoying the process of teaching them to live in this crazy world. Someday we might decide to homeschool all subjects, but even if we don’t, my “never” has still become a “maybe” after many long battles, I mean talks, with God!
Oh, and those other nevers? Well, I’ll tell you about those another time! 🙂
What “never” in your life has God changed to a “Maybe”?
Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”